Summer & Tyler

crazy in love...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Tulip Festival

Posted by Summer


I was finally able to go to the festival @ Thanksgiving Point but this was the best I could get. By the time I got the tulips they were so sad looking, weather beaten and droopy. Utah is known for going from winter straight into summer, and this year it hasn't been much different. So many storms and very few sunny days this spring, so just about every day I tried to make my way over, it was either too cold, dark, rainy or snowy. Not the best week for a celebration of flowers! But I was determined to go and I donned my ski jacket and Tyler and I went over after work. We got so lucky though--if you look closely at the last pic you can see a momma owl keeping her babies warm below the big waterfall. She was beautiful!







Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Hate these goodbyes

Posted by Summer

Not sure how Olane does it but she's always a rock when I'm an emotional wreck.
Maybe if we were the ones moving to California it'd be different, but it's so hard when the people you love move far away. Goodbyes are always the worst part and I'm no good at them. I cried all the way home. Hmmm--I've been doing a lot a crying lately haven't I? I'm really not that emotional I promise. :) Miss you guys and little Cashew. I have a feeling we may be joining them in the Cali sunshine sooner than later. Like Ty said last week, "A move to the coast is imminent".
This year, next year, 5 years from now...we'll see where life/work/school takes us.





Monday, May 17, 2010

Salt Lake Japanese Festival

Posted by Summer

When we first met, Tyler's interest in the Japanese culture is partially why I was so attracted to him. He traveled to Japan in 2004 and taught himself Japanese. I try not to get too hung up on the fact that his last girlfriend was Chinese and the one before that was hapa (half Japanese) too. I think it's pretty endearing that it interests him that much, and thankfully for me he believes he got a super great deal when he married me :). We'd love to go to Japan, but with my short amount of vaca time we'd rather go another year when we can spend a couple weeks to a month there. So when my friend Debbie told me about the festival, Ty was just as excited as I was. We enjoyed my heritage and topped it off with some nummy sushi after at our favorite place. We learned about Buddhism at the Salt Lake Buddhist Temple, watched a martial arts demonstration, and my favorite part...people watched.














Monday, May 17, 2010

Whoa

Posted by Summer

Have I really not blogged in 17 days? Hmph. I really have a ton of catching up to do. I know the main reason I haven't blogged this past week is because I've been stressing way too much over teaching my Relief Society Lesson. But, I do have multiple, extremely good reasons for the stressing. I suck at teaching and I suck at speaking in public. I had my second lesson on the Prophets of God yesterday and I choked.

Hard.
Think as many cotton balls as would fit in your mouth, then an incredible stutter on top of that, and all your thoughts running away and an empty hole where your brain should be, leaving you looking out upon a sea of faces just staring back....waiting. Sheesh. I don't even want to be friends with myself. I was a disaster.
Afterwards, I ran out of there so fast and sat in with Ty in his class, and finally when the last kid was picked up did the tears start welling up. I don't know what to do. I want to do the right thing and buck up and serve in my calling and do the best that I can, but my best is not cutting it. I completely embarrassed myself, the Spirit wasn't there, and I don't think that I am doing any good for anyone. I know this is supposed to be for me, but I'm not so sure this is something that I can get over. Last month I spent the morning sitting by the toilet, on the verge of vomiting the entire time leading up to my lesson. It doesn't matter how many hours upon hours I spend, I never feel ready. Anyone I've talked to says this is the best and favorite calling they've had, but I'm completely the opposite. Speaking in public is just one of those things I wasn't blessed with. Tyler I don't think quite understood this fear I've had my whole life until I completely lost it yesterday. Husbands hate it when their wives cry. And I hate when I cry. Will I ever get over it?! I sure hope so...

Luckily, Tyler is bringing me IN-N-OUT (with fries) right now, and that always makes things better. That, and knowing I have 30 days until my next lesson!